Another Day has dawned

Well, I am feeling some better these past few days....I am going to start working fewer hours and the idea is nice but stressful at the same time. Will I be able to get things done? I have alot to finish before I "go". Our office is upside down right now, a director gone and new director come on Monday and many hopes and expectations for a better life at work.

I have been experienceing hormonal stuff and it has been difficult to feel so out of control of my own life, my thoughts, the words that come out of my mouth. My midwife thinks I am exhausted and that is why my head is cookcoo. I body is out of my control as well...the baby moves, absorbs my energy and nutrition, grows, I can't stop it, I can't have energy I can't bend over, I can't run, I am a factory at this point and the bottom line of a baby being produced is the final answer no matter how tired or fed up the factory worker is... Perhaps I should call this blog my Pregnancy Diary.....

Anyhoo I agree with Erica, life has been busy. I feel like the planet is spinning so fast....when will it end? I want to be by a lake, wind brezzing slightly, a drink in my hand, a slim body with an attractive swimsuit on (maybe even a bikini), and quiet, no voices calling, no phones ringing, no demands, no bills to pay, just a beautiful cottage behind me decorated by Design Inc. A man who actually loves me and does not wish I was something I am not comes out and quietly sits beside me and we absorb the quiet awe of life and it's sweetness....the cool breeze, the relaxing drink, a confident knowledge of being adored by your partner and the gentle sound of the water...

Now I have go and dress my kids, buy underware for my 5 year old, a present for a party at 2 and prepare for my part in church tomorrow...

God Have Mercy on Us!