Damn I am Good!
Had a job interview today...it went well I think but I kept having out of body experiences the whole time. I felt like I was looking down at myself. At some points I was thinking, wow, I am articulate, I didn't even know I could be so insightfull and other times I looked down at myself and saw my fat roles on my belly, saw my cheeks flushed from nerves and excitment, saw my unslightly man hands with crewed fingernails. (not that man hands are ugly but they are on a women. Women's hands on a man are considered graceful but the opposite is not true)
Sometimes I really do think Damn I am Good, but most of the time I think why can't I be extra-ordinary...why I can't I be the one that people are talking about...did you hear about mimlap she is really a bright star (mostly they don't say this because I cannot spell, it is not for lack of effort, it really is a disability that I have and i can't seem to get my blog to spell check) I also seem to be ok, but not wow. The funny thing is when someone really does believe in themselves ( not false confidence or bravado but real belief in oneself) people around them eat it up, believe it too, I have seen it time and time again...people believe about you what you tell them. (I know it does not apply all the time but 8 times out of 10 I bet.
Anyway....now I just want to climb into bed and disappear for a few days...I feel naked and affraid...maybe the evil after effects of having had a few moments today where I actually felt good about who I am...get thee behind me satan.
mimlap out
posted by mimlap @ 12/16/2005 10:23:00 p.m.
8 Comments:
Hey dude!
I'm glad to hear it well (or that you think it did).
And for the record,...you are a shining star in my books!!
In the words of the immortal Liam, "You rock, dude!"
Shouldn't you finish the story for all those reading this blog?
Ok, I got the job and the Dean said afterward, that I gave a brillent interview...Ok so I feel good about that and I am excited about the job...now I have to get over the guilt of feeling like a bad mother by leaving my 4 mth old at home without me....she does have her darling dad and though and that is the only way it would be possible.
Thank you for your encouragement throughout the process, you guys are amazing friends!
Hey. Merry Christmas. Happy New Year. Etc.
Miriam, it's time for a new post
:)
But are you good enough to blog about your first week back... now that is the question!
Since Miriam won't blog, we could all start blogging for her through her comments section.
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